This is me when my world stops turning.

I still remember the feelings I felt the night I told you I was too heavy for your arms and you promised you were strong enough to take care of me, anyway.  It's hard to forget them when I feel them every time I receive as little as a good morning text from you.

Everything is so different now.  

The conversations barely scratch the surface of anything deeper than the weather.  And I lay my head on my pillow every night in hopes of falling asleep only to start thinking of you.  Every.  Single.  Night.  And you?  You are sound asleep before you even count to the third sheep.  I'm so in love with who I wish you (still) were.

You are the way my heart beats.

And you are the words my tongue speaks. 

And I will die if you leave me.

Forty eight hours.

I woke up insanely early yesterday and spent seven solid hours in this spot watching How I Met Your Mother while working.  Starting a new project, getting things together for a new client, catching up on 50+ emails sent throughout the night, getting new interns adjusted... just a typical day.

That night I received a text from my GBF missing our friendship.  He wants me there and I would love to be there but my work and life are here now so I want him here.  The people you need the most moving away is the part of growing up that really never gets easier.  I miss him so much.

I've been journaling so much in the past few days and last night was no exception. Especially after the conversation with the GBF.

3am and I finally fell asleep.. only to wake up less than two hours later for Fajr.

Got all of these Open Our Eyes bracelet orders mailed today.  It was such a humbling feeling to know how many people support the Open Our Eyes community.  So happy to have an amazing team behind me now.

This is how I look after almost forty eight hours of non-stop work. Sexy, right?  The messy hair and glasses are what do it for you, right?  I know, I know.  And to answer the question that is on everyone's mind right now, yes I am available. Please direct all relationship inquiries to my assistant/mother.

It's now 10pm and I'm finally in bed.. only to do more work.  Getting ready for a Band Aid Records meeting via Skype and then working on a project for a potential client.