Once Upon A Temple

I'd planned on visiting the temple at some point while I was here and on the way to the store today, I stumbled upon it.  I'm a firm believer in signs so I turned around and went inside the gates.  We don't have a temple where I live so this was my first time seeing one outside of pictures.

So many feelings.  I'll blog about the experience as soon as I'm done processing it.

And it came to pass, that after three days they found him in the temple, sitting in the midst of the doctors, both hearing them, and asking them questions.

- Luke 2:46

Forgive and Forget?

I forgive her.  And I want to move past this.

But, I'll never forget that she wasn't there when I needed her the most.  My walls are so high now that no one can ever get over them again.

"You hurt me deeply..."

Tuesday Tunes: Wrecking Ball

We clawed, we chained, our hearts in vain
We jumped, never asking why
We kissed, I fell under your spell
A love no one could deny

Don't you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you
I can't live a lie, running for my life
I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah you, you wreck me

I put you high up in the sky
And now, you're not coming down
It slowly turned, you let me burn
And now, we're ashes on the ground

Don't you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you
I can't live a lie, running for my life
I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me
I came in like a wrecking ball
Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung
Left me crouching in a blazing fall
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah you, you wreck me

I never meant to start a war
I just wanted you to let me in
And instead of using force
I guess I should've let you win
I never meant to start a war
I just wanted you to let me in
I guess I should've let you win

Don't you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me
I came in like a wrecking ball
Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung
Left me crouching in a blazing fall
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah you, you wreck me
Yeah you, you wreck me

Challenge Accepted: Heart Ramblings

Over the past several months, I've accumulated quite a few writings on love.  On September 19th, those words are being released in a book.

It isn't about one girl in particular, but rather all of the girls I've ever given my heart to.  It was really hard putting this together but now that it's completed, I look back on these writings fondly.  The feelings on these pages no longer apply to the people they were written for but I still have those feelings and one day I'll be able to share them with someone.  Just not now.  And not any time soon.  

I'm not the same scared little girl who wrote these words.  I lost myself in the quest to find my soulmate and I'm finally getting on track again.  This book is a reminder of how strongly I'm capable of loving but also a warning for me to not drown myself in loving someone else again.

Random Fact: September 19th marks four months of something incredible happening in my love life.  19 times 4 is 76, which is how many pages this book has.

L'Shannah Tovah!

Tuesday Tunes: Hold On We're Going Home

I got my eyes on you

You're everything that I see

I want your hot love and emotion

Endlessly, I can't get over you

You left your mark on me

I want your hot love and emotion endlessly

Cause you're a good girl and you know it

You act so different around me

Cause you're a good girl and you know it

I know exactly who you could be

Just hold on we're going home

Just hold on we're going home

It's hard to do these things alone

Just hold on we're going home

I got my eyes on you

You're everything that I see

I want your hot love and emotion

Endlessly, I can't get over you

You left your mark on me

I want your hot love and emotion endlessly

Cause you're a good girl and you know it

You act so different around me

Cause you're a good girl and you know it

I know exactly who you could be

Just hold on we're going home

Just hold on we're going home

It's hard to do these things alone

Just hold on we're going home

You're the girl

You're the one

Gave you everything I love

I think there's something, baby

I think there's something, baby

You're the girl

You're the one

Gave you everything I love

I think there's something, baby

I think there's something, baby

Cause you're a good girl and you know it

You act so different around me

Cause you're a good girl and you know it

I know exactly who you could be

Just hold on we're going home

Just hold on we're going home

It's hard to do these things alone

Just hold on we're going home

I promise I won't let go.

Because what are the chances of finding someone... who can finish your sentences, who will let you cut in line, who knows not to just lend a hand or an ear when you need them to give you their spine, who is woman enough to be best man at your wedding, who will keep every secret, save every letter, tell you how you really look, who will remember every single one of your birthdays without checking Facebook?  What are the odds of finding someone who knows your poetry by heart?  ...  

When the fire takes all you have, my home will be your home.  When you are old and no longer remember my face, I will meet you for the first time again and again... They could tell how rare this is.  They could tell you how rare friendship always is.  The chances are slim, the cards are always stacked against you, the odds are always low.  But I've seen the best of you and the worst of you and I choose both.  I want to share every single one of your sunshine and save some for later.  I will tuck them into my pockets so I can give them back to you when the rains fall hard.  Friend.  I want to be the air in your lungs that reminds you to breathe easy.  

When the walls come down, when the thunder rumbles, when nobody else is home, hold my hand and I promise I won't let go.

September Blog Challenge

"And if you're just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work.  Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story.  It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions.  And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I've ever met.  It's gonna take awhile.  It's normal to take awhile.  You'e just gotta fight your way through it." - Ira Glass

With this quote in mind, I'm challenging myself to blog EVERYDAY in September.

Something you want me to write about?  Leave a comment or email me: brittny[at]itsbrittny[dot]com.