A Collection of Heart Ramblings

"The best way to get over a girl is to turn her into literature." - 500 Days of Summer

Konstantine is a two part series about my greatest love. Part one, Challenge Accepted, is about the beginning. It's new and refreshing and painfully beautiful.  

Part two is about the end. Because that's what love does. 

It begins and then it ends. 

You can purchase part one here for only $5. No matter if you love or hate it, I'd like to know your thoughts so please leave me a review on Amazon. Part two will be available next month. Both will be available in print in December. Hopefully. 

I'm incredibly thankful for my friends (especially you, Daniel) who have really pushed me to publish my writing. I've always been so terrified of people reading my words then a few years ago I started blogging but I never thought I'd venture outside of that and publish things more intimate. But I'm really glad I did because the feedback has been overwhelmingly positive. 

In case you missed it, I published my first short story, "If You Go, I Go" back in June. You can purchase it here. 

It's also featured in the summer issue of Wilde Magazine. 

From Jenny Schecter to Shane McCutcheon

My entire life has been one serious relationship after another where I was always the one who loved more.  I spent so much of my life waiting to be completed, thinking that I was only a minor character in someone else's tale.

Then one day, I woke up and decided I didn't want to feel that way anymore.  So, I changed.

Just like that.

Those closest to me think that I'm going through some sort of quarter life crisis as the result of a heartbreak and have initiated several interventions.  But hold the calvary, I assure you this is not the case.  This is not a cry for help, this is not an in-between stage until my Princess or Prince Charming comes along.  This is the first well-thought out life change I've ever made.

I'm not a heartless person.  I still care about things and people so much that it hurts sometimes.  It's just not in the romantic/relationship sense.  I have family, which includes my best friends, that I will catch a literal grenade for.  (Okay, maybe not catch the grenade because that's silly, but I would push them out of the way of said grenade.)  And that, is the essence of Shane.  She's a loyal friend with an incredible soul.  She treats the women in her life like the princesses they are, while still being completely honest about her lack of desire for any sort of commitment.  She likes you, but she also likes a lot of other people.  The problems arise through no fault of her own.  It's through the women who are convinced they will be that one girl who can change her.  STOP DOING THAT.  Take this for what it is.

Stop settling.  Stop this never-ending quest for "the one" that will complete you.  YOU COMPLETE YOU.  The girls (or guys for my 10% heterosexual readers) are just there to make the ride more interesting.

Welcome to the future.

You hear that?

What's that sound?

Shhhh.... listen....

Sounds a lot like....

FREEDOM.

For the first time in my life I can say I'm proud to be an American. In addition to Obama being re-elected, the Senate elected its first open/out lesbian, first disabled woman and first Asian American woman. In other words, BINDERS FULL OF AWESOME. Four states voted on marriage equality and four states WON. I can't wait for the day when voting on someone else's human rights is seen as completely barbaric but for now I'll take what I can get.

I am very unapologetic about my beliefs and my decision to voice them. Loudly. I will not stop talking about how proud I am to be on the right side of history.

Mysogyny did not win. Homophobia did not win. Classism did not win. Racism did not win. Religious fundamentalism did not win. Bigotry did not win. Men who made light of rape did not win.

Women won. The LGBT community and it's allies won. Racial minorities won. The poor won. The middle class won. The elderly won. Students won. Teachers won. Children of single parents won. The sick won. The international community won.

Love won.

Love wins.

EVERY TIME.

We did it, y'all. We really did it. Celebrate how far hard we've fought and how far we've come. But don't stop! This is only the beginning. There's still work to do. Our freedom begins with the election of the POTUS but it doesn't end there. Please be just as present in politics on social media and in your own community as you've been the past few months. We have to keep fighting and please show up for the next election the way you did with this one. And the next one. And the next one. This country can't undo years and years of wrong overnight. But, Alhumdullilah, we are finally on our way.

Four more years. Four more years. Four more years. Four more years.
As Brad Paisley said, welcome to the future.