i find it hard to tell you, i find it hard to take.

the past week has really taken a toll on me emotionally. things i thought i'd moved past all came crashing down. it was a lot to handle.. so i didn't. not handling things is a something i've become very good at over the past few years.

last night i reached my breaking point. and there was no one i could tell. [inset cliche about being surrounded by so many people yet feeling alone here] i'm not looking for a pity party so i spare you details.

after two hours of sleep, i woke up this morning and nothing had changed. in fact, things were starting to get worse. have you ever felt like your brain was literally trying to kill you? it's like you wake up one day afraid you're going to live.

around noon open our eyes received a very generous donation. and then another. and then the support just started to pour in. friends, some i hadn't even spoken to in years, were flooding every social media platform with kind words about the impact open our eyes had on their lives and how they wanted others to experience that. suddenly a financial goal that i never thought was possible was slowly becoming a reality. we still haven't reached our goal.. maybe we will, maybe we won't. it's completely irrelevant to me at this point. knowing that there are so many people out there who believe in this community is more than i could ever ask for. i'm so humbled by the response. and inspired. and encouraged. and every other cliche emotion you can imagine.

in my moment of weakness i forgot to practice what i preach. the lesson is in the struggle not the victory. thank you, open our eyes, for reminding me. thank you for always being my strength. i'm so honored to be a part of this community.